Congrats to Bryan and Jesslina, they look so cute together.
On Friday at Seven, when she was sitting on the sofa and he was squatting next to the sofa talking to her, he sparkled. He lit up when he looked at her.

I miss that. I want someone to look at me and sparkle. I want to look at someone and be that happy. Completely, perfectly and incandescently happy. Just knowing that that special someone is there makes everything okay.

I remember before Ian and I we ever kissed. It was just before tuition and he was at my house. We were both sitting on the floor next to my bed when he put his hand on my head. He started stroking my hair and I knew he wanted to kiss me but he didn't dare. When he put his hand on my head, I had chills down my spine. That belly flop, exciting feeling when you're first getting close to someone. I miss the feeling...

Of course I like the certainty that comes with a long-term relationship as oppose to the volatility of a new relationship starting out. I like my other half knowing my likes and dislikes from experience and vice versa. I like being comfortable enough around that person to be able to relax and be myself.

Both a budding relationship and a relationship in full bloom have their pros and cons. I on the other hand, have nothing. Zip, zilch, zero! For the first time in my life, I'm single and I have been single for the longest time. Now I can say I've been there, done that but now it's time to move on. This single thing is getting old.

I am by no means lowering my own peculiar standard but I just wish that Mr Right/Mr Right-for-now would hurry up and come my way. So wherever you are Mr Right/Mr Right-for-now, come find me quick quick okay?


XOXO

K